怎么办

我越来越不舍得这里所有的一切了

怎么办?

:(

Life's good

I am so happy recently.
Everything is going smoothly now... both physically and emotionally.
I got a new laptop and camera and yay! I am very happy :)

I going to stop my job too because I have to go back to hometown real soon. Yea super mm seh dak all my kids :(
but it's really a great experience working here. I learned lots of things and I really love the kids here. I am gonna to miss them so so much when I left.

Em yea everything is like going very well. As in not much mood swing now. Always remain in pH7 or sometime a little bit hyper when I see D hehe. He can really cheer me up through many ways. Either through his words or action. I feel so loved and I never think I can be appreciated by someone until this extend. I love you dear and thank you so so much. *hugs*

I am leaving Malaysia real soon but somehow I still haven't feel the sadness to leave the country. I know that's weird but I don't know why. I am quite chilling in a way haha. Maybe I did not push too hard on myself or I take it easy in seeing this thing. I like myself being like this now. I will just face whatever thing that come into my life peacefully. You want to criticize me, said anything negative to discourage me or what-so-ever, I don't mind! I will just live happily with people I care and love, you just say whatever you want, I still will live my life in my own way. I do not need anyone to teach me how to live my life. Anyway, thanks for your advice. I still love you as a friend :)

I am so contented with my life now.
Very contented and I feel :))

Redang

出发前查了天气预报
"热浪岛 有雨"
心都凉了
但还是自我催眠地说没事的当着运气高没看到


到了热浪岛 对 是热的
天气晴朗到一个不行 更正确地说法是热到烫人
新买的防晒油一下就用完了
原来国际天气预报网站也有出差错的时候

海水真的清澈见底 超级无敌漂亮
天空海水都是蓝蓝的 我整个人就是一个好心情

阳光 海滩 太阳眼镜 bikini 浮潜
珊瑚礁 小鱼 大鱼 鲨鱼 海鳗鱼

第一次浮潜 十分没有安全感
拼命捉着他的救生衣不放 搞得最后他只好给我他的救生衣当我的浮板 不习惯用面罩 结果喝了一大堆的海水 告诉你 热浪岛的海水还真不是普通地咸
习惯了后 还是不敢一个人游 他拉着我的手用力地划 我另一只手扶着他给我的救生衣 嗯心想: 够安全了
一看到好看的鱼就拼命追 手就一直指向漂亮的鱼 通知另一方 换来的是一个笑脸
还有我发现带着面罩透过吸管在海底讲话是一件很奇妙的事
我一直小心翼翼地避免踩到珊瑚礁 还有拼命地避开鱼群 觉得那些鱼会被我踢伤
他说: 鱼群游得比你快 闪你都来不及 你还怕踢到它们
哈哈哈 有道理

身穿救生衣 但还是十分没有安全感
连下个船都怕得要命
告诉你 下次有人叫你跳下船你最好干脆一点
不要手握住船 脚在海水里 落到整个人半天吊的那种窘境
下场只有一个 淤青

这段旅程还让我发现了蓝沙这回事
blue sand
夜时 手扫了扫靠近海岸的沙 它竟然会发出蓝色的光 哇 我好像发现新大陆一样 开心得很 第一次看到这东西 只能说真的很漂亮很神奇
第一晚看到一堆人在沙滩上划的划 用脚踩的踩
我还笑他们说怎么那么傻三更半夜玩什么沙
结果第二晚我就是那个傻瓜

我喜欢每一段旅程 留给我很多难忘的回忆
不会忘记我们两个手牵手在浮潜时在海底看到那一对与我们对望好久的两条鱼
不会忘记他不顾一切地潜入海底只为了拿个海参及捡个死珊瑚给我看
不会忘记在那海里我看到了什么叫christmas coral 一开一关的 好像挂在圣诞树上那五颜六色的灯
不会忘记原来海星在白天时是那么肥那么可爱的
不会忘记那班吵得要命的day day day
不会忘记住在我们隔壁的老夫妻 还有谢谢你们的那顿午餐

这片海真的很漂亮
躺在沙滩椅上 吹吹海风 晒晒太阳 好舒服

我一定会再回来的

[redang 10072009-12072009]

Goodie good

I am alright now.

Thanks for all the concern, you all make me feel that I am not alone.

Thanks :)

Anyway, I am not so good after all haha.

I fall sick! Blame the haze in KL. Sore throat,flu,coughing and all of them come in a combo. I can't work because I scared will spread the virus all over the kindergarten and make the children sick. So yea better guai guai stay at home.

Em seriously I am okay now. Maybe I really need to take it easy, don't push too hard on myself. I don't have much time in Malaysia anymore. I really don't want to waste my time on all these emotional problem. Maybe I should just enjoy my time here, spending more time with him.

Thanks for everything dear.

You really did a great job! You make me feel so loved.

I love you.

Till then

Peace

Dear psychologist

I don't know what's wrong with me now. I don't know how I feel now, all kinds of feelings mixed up. I am moody,down, sad, sometime neutral, sometime don't even know how I feel. I can't explain this kind of feelings, but I hate it. I hate myself being like this. What is the reason? I am doing very good in my work, I am enjoying it very much. Is it I going to leave soon, that's why so emotional? I really don't know, I don't know. I treated the person around so badly and I know I hurt them. I am so sorry, so so sorry. Somehow I can't control my action, I don't know why I will act like that to them, espeacially you. I am so sorry my dear, I know it's my bad, it's my fault. You know sometime I just feel like pour out everything in my heart, but I don't know what is it, what to tell, I just feel like crying. Did I having depression, dear psychologist? haha maybe a mild one. But, seriously I hate this kind of feelings. I don't mean to hurt You my dear, because I don't even know what's wrong with me now. So easily to get irritated, little little things make me feel so pissed already. I am trying my best to control my emotion. Please give me some time. I know I can handle it. Please forgive me for my bad action towards you. I don't mean to hurt you, I mean it.

I know you are reading this,
I know I am bad but I just want you to know I also don't want to do that.
Sorry dear. I am so sorry.
You are great. Loves.

Heaven

Gosh Redang is so so so so beautiful. The water is crystal clear.
So so nice and I am so in love with this island.
I shall update more about that soon :)

I do

I can't stop my tears when I read the post.

I can't tell how I feel.

I just feel like hugging you tight and don't let you go.

You are the one my dear, the only one.

I promise everything will be fine and 2 years will pass really really fast.

I love you.

you know I do.

to you my fong

Fung Wei Fong! This post is dedicated to you my dear.

Haha.. don't say I didn't mention your name in my blog. And I purposely make this post in purple, your favourite color :)

I really appreciate our friendship although we don't meet up that often, or should I say once in a year? Haha.. Hey, I think we knew each other for more than 10 years already eh. Since Standard 2 or younger? I still remember in Standard 3, teacher asked us to write an essay about 'My Best Friend' and I wrote you. Hahaha.. It's like 10 years back but I still remember it. I still ask you how to write your mandarin name. Dumb me. Hehe..

But, you know I really care for you. I am really touched by what you did for me although you are in Melbourne now. Birthday call every year, the handmade birthday card, phone call, sms, facebook, comment in my blog, msn. You are indeed a great friend that care a lot for me :)

I appreciate everything you did. Always be there for me when I am down. I still remember we web cam when I just arrived in KL while you are in Aus. Although we are in different places but we do try our best to keep in touch with each other.Looking at each other room, chatting about which guys are we looking at, what interesting things happened over there. Hehe.

Fong, I am seriously feel happy for what you are having now. You are doing very well there and keep it up k! But do take good care of yourself. If got chance I really wish I can visit you in Melbourne. Or you come to UK to visit me ya. I think this will be much better. LOL.

I will always miss the time we spent together when we were still in high school. Chatting non-stop wei no matter in class or in the lab, library or even in the canteen. I will miss the time you and huiping turned your chair behind and keep chatting and laughing out loud in the class with me and Hui En. All the good old times eh..

Take care ya darling. Muacks! *hugs*

up and down

我 有点 乱了

又是up and down 之中的down了吧

没事的

过了两天 又会回到那个up的了

:)